Yesterday, we mapped disappointment, discouragement, depression, and disbelief. All of these are dangerous, but maybe there isn’t any apparent sin. A spectator may not charge you with the “fowl mood,” but you know where you stand and more obviously God knows. Numbers 13-14 are the rest of the story. It is the fruit of the journey which led to disbelief. Once we enter the delirium of disbelief, sin is lying at the door.
We may arrive at disbelief in different ways or quicker ways, but once we pull in the shoddy town of disbelief we are in the Kadesh moment. Think of an umbrella. As long as I am properly aligned (under) the umbrella, I am protected. Disbelief is the moment, the half-step, out from under the umbrella. Eve caved to disbelief when she doubted the word of God. Cain was a resident of disbelief when he could not accept God’s rejection. David spent the night in disbelief when he figured no one would know. Peter’s disbelief was the door slam of denial. The children of Israel faced their own moment of disbelief when ten spies returned with the evil report. Instead of praising the blessing and fruitfulness of following God, they counted the giants and impossibilities and forgot the power of God. Their disbelief produced disobedience.
We commonly associate an infraction as disobedience, which it is, but consider the other dimension of disobedience. When God says go and do, but we stay and don’t, we are guilty of disobedience. It may seem impossible. We may see a lot of giants, but the command still stands, “Go! I will never leave you nor forsake you.” Someone said, “God has nothing worth having that is easy. There are no cheap goods in the heavenly market. Our redemption cost all that God had to give, and everything worth having is expensive.”
Some of the most disobedient people are not the ones living outside the church, but the ones seated inside the church. They know God has commanded. They know God has moved in their life, but they refused to comply because they are living in disbelief of God. The sad end of this Kadesh moment in Israel could be the sad story of your life if you live in disbelief. The Israelites voluntarily disinherited themselves from God’s blessing. You will not lose your salvation, but you can be disinherited from the blessings of peace, joy, and victory. Have you forfeited the spoils of spiritual warfare because of unbelief? If you are facing a moment of disbelief, get out as fast as you can. Don’t risk the possibility of being disobedient. The result is grim. “Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith” (Hebrews 10:22).