“I need that donut!”
I think quietly to myself as my mouth begins to salivate. The truth is, as my mom used to say, “You need that like you need a hole in your head.” We are prone to dupe ourselves into believing a lie. David knew all about self-deceit. He had been tortured by its grip long enough and there was plenty of damage which was evidence of how cut-throat deception can be.
The term David uses is “guile” (Psalm 32:2), and for the next few verses, he begins to peel back the mask of his self-deception to reveal the true person. He describes “when I kept silence, my bones waxed old…thy hand was heavy upon me, and my moisture was turned to drought.” He was one step away from death and his foot was on a banana peel! He realized he would either take this to the grave or let God take it to the cross. He came clean. He acknowledged his sin to God. The result was the transfusion of ice in his veins with the warmth of blessedness.
“Blessed is the man…in whose spirit there is no guile.”
This word guile is inextricably tied to another person in Scripture—Jacob. He came with subtilty (Genesis 27:35 uses the same root word) and swindled the birthright from Esau. Even when God came to Jacob in Bethel, he pretended everything was okay. He played his own version of “Let’s Make a Deal” with God refusing to come clean during God’s invitation. Only after Jacob was the victim of similar shenanigans when Laban switched the bride on him (Genesis 29:25 again uses the same root word here), was Jacob about ready to come clean. Finally, as he wrestled with God, he admitted, “I am Jacob.” In effect, I am the deceiver.
“Blessed is the man in whose spirit there is no guile.”
Jacob does receive a blessing from God. Pure in motive and honest in self-image, this was the noble identification of God’s people (John 1:47; Revelation 14:5). Decide to throw yourself upon the mercy of God without guile. Do not pretend any longer. Recognize that we are all sinners, and hopefully, you are a sinner saved by grace.
“I need that donut!”