“My heart is fixed, O God, my heart is fixed…”(Ps. 57:7). These words are repeated in today’s text, “O God, my heart is fixed…”(Ps. 108:1); indicating there “might” have been a period(s) of doubt between writings. Did David rewrite this to reassure himself? David’s life was full of drama and we have to remember he was human. We all like to think we are “Super Christian,” but if we are honest we all have periods of weakness. It is what we do, or who we turn to, in troubling times that is important (“Vain is the help of man” Ps.108:12).
We can point fingers at David all we want, but we are exactly like him and from the same mold. “As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one,” (Rm. 3:10) and “For there is not a just man upon earth, that doeth good, and sinneth not” (Ecc.7:20). That should take care of those who think they are good. We all have sinned and come short of God’s glory (Rm. 3:23). How many times have we gotten in front of God, or wondered if He would work in our lives? We have seen Him perform mighty works for others, but we doubt if He would do it for us. We should be convinced of our salvation, but I must admit there are days that I do not “feel” saved. Thank God it is not about feelings, but based on the promises of God.
Recently, I had been praying for three months regarding a specific matter. I was sure this prayer would be answered within 2-3 weeks, but after a month the hope of an answer was fading. I kept praying and my faith continued to weaken as time marched on. Into the third month, I started to question whether I was doing something wrong or where was the lesson in this. I never doubted God; just whether He would work in my case! How dare me allowing my humanity to second-guess Holy God. In spite of my worry, I continued to pray and ask the Lord. I did not give up on God and He never did me. I remembered the line from the popular hymn, “Where could I go but to the Lord.”
Three mornings ago, as I was waking, that very prayer request came to mind. I got that feeling of doubt, but this time it was different. God gave me comfort and calmed my spirit. I felt assured it would be taken care of soon. When I woke up, little did I realize sooner than I thought. Checking my mail delivery on the internet, I found the answered prayer. Oh Lord, I thought, oh “me” of little faith (Mt. 6:30). I felt guilty for my lack of faith, but relieved knowing I brought my problems to the Problem Solver.